Serious Thoughts..
Read Sak's blog on Sundae night and I cried.. Dunno y..
I always thought when two people are in a relationship, they will definitely know what each other is doing at any point of time..
But after observing the couple around me these few days.. Things doesn't seems like what I thought..
Maybe I never had a misconception, just that things always happen the way I thought it shld be happening..
In all my relationship, I know what he is doing now, where he is, who he is with, when he is sleeping.. I thought it shld happen this way..
But people are pursuing freedom in relationships now.. So maybe I should learn to accept that.. So that i wouldn't make the same mistakes again..
Shouldn't be so possessive ba.. But I feel so insecure when I'm alone and couldn't find anyone to confide.. I feel so small.. So lonely..
I know everyone feels that once in a while, and will get over it sooner or later.. But mine seems so long..
Sometimes I feels that I am too old..
Cos I wanna learn dance, piano..
And i feel that it all came too late in my mind..
But I feel so immature in relationship..
I couldn't understand the meaning of love..
I onli know he is my all time companion..
The saddness i felt during breakups is because of love, or because I lose my companion.. ?
I DUN UNDERSTAND..
Decided to be those single but nt available type..
Should stop searching for the guy..
Should wait for nature to take its course..
Meanwhile, I will enjoy my life with my ET..
And hope he will become what I hope he will become..
I know that's selfish..
But I reli meant good..
I hope u will noe how i felt these few daes.. I had never once lied to u my feelings.. Wth it's gd or bad, i will tell u truthfully..
Everytime u smoke, u give mi a chance to give a thought abt giving up..
I'm so tired of giving you permission cos u had never once followed what I sae..
You know what I want and hope to get from u..
I have already stop searching..
I hope you wont made mi regret my decision again..
I feel so insecure now, cos u aren't here by my side..
I hope to get your full attention..
I rmb ur 1st tear for mi..
I wont make u cry anymore..
Cos I will always be the weaker one for u to take care of..
I want you to be responsible for my well being..
For I have chosen to take this path with you..
You know how I have cried because of my fren's relationship..
Cos I dun wan to be like them..
Got blinded by love..
I asked you: " Why do couples quarrel, complains, angered, cried.. But are still tgt..?"
You told mi: "Because of love"
Till todae i dun understand love..
And I want you to show me the way to understanding it..
Feel it..
And showing it to you is my ultimate motive..

I always thought when two people are in a relationship, they will definitely know what each other is doing at any point of time..
But after observing the couple around me these few days.. Things doesn't seems like what I thought..
Maybe I never had a misconception, just that things always happen the way I thought it shld be happening..
In all my relationship, I know what he is doing now, where he is, who he is with, when he is sleeping.. I thought it shld happen this way..
But people are pursuing freedom in relationships now.. So maybe I should learn to accept that.. So that i wouldn't make the same mistakes again..
Shouldn't be so possessive ba.. But I feel so insecure when I'm alone and couldn't find anyone to confide.. I feel so small.. So lonely..
I know everyone feels that once in a while, and will get over it sooner or later.. But mine seems so long..
Sometimes I feels that I am too old..
Cos I wanna learn dance, piano..
And i feel that it all came too late in my mind..
But I feel so immature in relationship..
I couldn't understand the meaning of love..
I onli know he is my all time companion..
The saddness i felt during breakups is because of love, or because I lose my companion.. ?
I DUN UNDERSTAND..
Decided to be those single but nt available type..
Should stop searching for the guy..
Should wait for nature to take its course..
Meanwhile, I will enjoy my life with my ET..
And hope he will become what I hope he will become..
I know that's selfish..
But I reli meant good..
I hope u will noe how i felt these few daes.. I had never once lied to u my feelings.. Wth it's gd or bad, i will tell u truthfully..
Everytime u smoke, u give mi a chance to give a thought abt giving up..
I'm so tired of giving you permission cos u had never once followed what I sae..
You know what I want and hope to get from u..
I have already stop searching..
I hope you wont made mi regret my decision again..
I feel so insecure now, cos u aren't here by my side..
I hope to get your full attention..
I rmb ur 1st tear for mi..
I wont make u cry anymore..
Cos I will always be the weaker one for u to take care of..
I want you to be responsible for my well being..
For I have chosen to take this path with you..
You know how I have cried because of my fren's relationship..
Cos I dun wan to be like them..
Got blinded by love..
I asked you: " Why do couples quarrel, complains, angered, cried.. But are still tgt..?"
You told mi: "Because of love"
Till todae i dun understand love..
And I want you to show me the way to understanding it..
Feel it..
And showing it to you is my ultimate motive..

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